Peace

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I felt it and it gave me strength.

The last few days have been such a testament to my mom’s life. She loved fiercely and was adored by many. Her home overflowed with people coming to say goodbye. Everyone had a different story to tell. Some sad, most funny. She was quite a character, my mom.

Evening came and things settled down allowing us some quiet time with her. It was a rough night. My mom feared death more than anything so it took a very long time before she let go. Toward the end she made this terrible gurgling sound. Fortunately her nurse was there to explain what was happening but we still felt so helpless. I am having a hard time getting that sound out of my mind.

My poor dad doesn’t know what’s going on. I fully expect him to ask where she is days/months from now and that breaks my heart. They were married for 62 years. At one point my brother took off my mom’s wedding rings and handed them to me. Her hands were so petite. I slipped them on my pinkie finger and haven’t taken them off. I may never take them off. That meant more to me than he will ever know.

When I was a little girl and not feeling well my mom used to rock me and stroke my hair while she sang that song by The Fifth Dimension called Up, Up And Away. It seemed so appropriate, so right to return that gift. So I held her close while running my fingers through her beautiful white hair and I sang my mom to sleep . I am so grateful for that.

Would you like to ride in my beautiful balloon
Would you like to ride in my beautiful balloon
We could float among the stars together, you and I
For we can fly we can fly
Up, up and away
My beautiful, my beautiful balloon
The world’s a nicer place in my beautiful balloon
It wears a nicer face in my beautiful balloon
We can sing a song and sail along the silver sky
For we can fly we can fly
Up, up and away
My beautiful, my beautiful balloon
Suspended under a twilight canopy
We’ll search the clouds for a star to guide us
If by some chance you find yourself loving me
We’ll find a cloud to hide us
We’ll keep the moon beside us
Love is waiting there in my beautiful balloon
Way up in the air in my beautiful balloon
If you’ll hold my hand we’ll chase your dream across the sky
For we can fly we can fly
Up, up and away
My beautiful, my beautiful balloon
Balloon…
Up, up, and away…..

I love you Mom.

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20 responses to “Peace

  1. suz

    My condolences and much peace to you and your family during this time.

  2. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Mia. I am so sorry for your loss.

  3. Mia what a beautiful way to send your Mom on her journey. I am so sorry your Dad is obviously not doing well. I too have my Mom’s wedding rings and it is such a treasure.

    I hope the next few days as you make preparations go well. Glad you have other family members and friends to help. Lean on them so you will have the strength when you need it.

    Sending you {hugs}

    Laura

  4. Oh, Mia. Losing a parent is so hard. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. Many *hugs* to you.

  5. Mia this is a beautiful and heartbreaking post.

    I’m so sorry.

    Please know our thoughts are with you and your family.

  6. Coco

    Mia, I am so sorry for your loss. All my deepest sympathy, and hope for healing and peace someday, soon go out to you and your family.

  7. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  8. Jeff

    Mia, I want to wish you my deepest sympathy in your time of lose. It’s obvious that your mother was quite an individual. She will ALWAYS be remembered and will ALWAYS be there for you. 😉

    Jeff

  9. I’m sorry for your loss {{{Mia}}}

  10. Thinking of you and your family in this difficult time…

  11. Mia, I am so very sorry.

  12. What a beautiful gift you gave your Mom…much love and prayers during this time.

  13. Oh Mia, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m thinking about you.

    xoxox

  14. kim kim

    Mia dearest, I am so so sorry.

  15. jim

    Wishing serenity & strength for you and your family.

  16. rob

    Mia: add me to the list of those praying for you and your family. I am sorry for your loss.

  17. Oh, Mia, I am so very sorry for your loss. I’m thinking of you and your loved ones right now and keeping you close in my heart.

  18. Mia (((hugs)))
    I’m sitting here sobbing my eyes out (selfishly) reading your words…as it comes up to 8years since I was in your position..and I too heard that gurgling sound and also the sound called “death rattle” one that I will never get out of my head…
    I am so sorry for your loss and your pain…I know it all too well…It will get easier, but it will never truly leave…

    I am so sorry ((((((((((Hugs))))))))))) may your Mum rest in peace…………….

  19. Amyadoptee

    Honey, I am thinking of you now. You are in my prayers. Take care of you and your family sweet angel.

  20. Oh Mia. I am so sorry for your loss. Your tribute is beautiful. I’ve lost 3 parents and I know how hard it is, even if it’s expected.

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