Have you heard the Evanescence song- Call Me When Youre Sober?
I’m sure the connection between the song and my last post isn’t lost on you. I guess I’m just feeling THAT kind of strong this week. Honestly I’m loving it. The only problem is I keep waiting for the pathetic, sad and longing me to show back up. I know she’s there somewhere inside of me but I am really loving this strong woman’s company for the moment. It’s strange really, it being the holidays and all you would think I would be blubbery and reflective but I’m not. I think sending those cards to E and my sibs. was a good thing for me to do. It was certainly empowering. I have had so little power through this process that I appreciate every scrap I can muster.
Click above and check out the video if you haven’t seen it yet. I love the last line………..
Call Me When You’re Sober
Don’t cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can’t keep believing
We’re only deceiving ourselves
And I’m sick of the lie
And you’re too late
Don’t cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
Couldn’t take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you’re jaded
You can’t play the victim this time
And you’re too late
So don’t cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
You never call me when you’re sober
You only want it cause it’s over
It’s over
How could I have burned paradise?
How could I – you were never mine
So don’t cry to me
If you love me
You would be here with me
Don’t lie to me
Just get your things
I’ve made up your mind
Mia\'s Saving Grace 
Nice lyrics Mia. I hope you get use to the woman you are becoming (or maybe always were but didn’t or couldn’t show). Hope you have a warm and memorable Christmas!
i lurve amy lee and evanescence. their fallen album has lots of lyrics that remind me of adoption, losing my daughter, etc. try listening too my immortal or tournequit.
Mia, you are always that strong woman (she is always in you) even when you aren’t feeling it. I admire the way you are finding power for yourself in a situation in which you’ve been denied it.